You will never be. And fuck that. I hate you now. I love you though. Fuck all this shit. Cause love, it’s a fairy-fucking-tale. It don’t exist. And fuck all of you who think it’s possible. It isn’t.
The grass is always greener on the other side.
So that’s what they say. It’s true you know? When you look at someone else’s life and you think bout what your life is like.
Okay so my life isn’t thaaaaaaat fucked up. :) it is but not that bad. ( yes Sarah I agree with you)
Now as I lay here I worry bout stupid things like the fact that my hair doesn’t seem to be growing. Seriously. I wish I could just wake up with long hair. Suddenly. 😪 fat hope. It’ll never happen.
On another note I have a longggggg day tmr and that’s depressing. Depressed even before the day starts.
Given that I been skipping school and all, another hope I have is that I don’t get debarred or something cause it’s the final lap. But see I know, it’s a high possibility.
I need to keep positive. I really need to. Cause there is way more out there that I need to put within my reach. It seems so far away.
I need to be better than what I am. I stop myself from being better and I need to stop doing that. Cause I’m capable of more than what I let everyone expect of me. Of late at least.
So I’m gonna stop comparing my life to anyone else. Or try to at least. 😁